tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54295142024-02-07T01:28:13.041-06:00Experiments in LivingAnother world is possible and on a quiet day I can hear her breathing.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-82723482943068339042011-11-06T20:16:00.008-06:002011-11-06T20:35:37.222-06:00MissionsLately, I have been reflecting on missions. This makes sense considering that my current calling in life involves running a mission trip center. I have also been considering taking a trip to Zimbabwe for my own mission experience and I am wondering if I am able to do this.<div><br /></div><div>I struggle with missions. My biggest problem is that I see them as colonizing. It is so easy for a bunch of white Americans (because let's be honest, because of our broken economic system it is usually people who are white who can afford these trips) to travel with the intentions of helping the "poor, innocent Africans/Mexicans/etc." We believe that we have the answers and think about what these poor people would do if the mission team did not come. We dehumanize the people we help. We want a great story and pictures to bring home. We may learn some of the names of the people we are helping, but they are really "that person I met on my trip." We rarely continue contact following our visit.</div><div><br /></div><div>We want to choose the projects that we do. What is fun for us and what shows the biggest change to the community is most important. We want to leave our mark. If we don't, we feel that we have failed. But what if the task that most needs to be done, is not the giant construction project, but instead sitting under a tree with an elder and learning about the environmental degradation she is facing?</div><div><br /></div><div>Or perhaps we choose not to go at all. Instead, we write a check to feed orphans in China. We have done our part and feel better about ourselves.</div><div><br /></div><div>We come, we do our work, and we return to our lifestyle of abundance in the United States. We bring back stories, souvenirs, and photos but how often does it affect our lives? Shouldn't we feel convicted about the fact that we have so much and others have so little? Shouldn't we begin to ask questions about the systems and structures that prevent people from living full and abundant lives? </div><div><br /></div><div>Despite the problems I see with missions. I don't think that we can stop. People need the resources that groups bring. But I do think that mission trips need to reframe their thinking. What if they decide to use their money to pay local workers to do a project and instead commit to listen and learn? And then the important part; groups must be so fully impacted that they return home and begin to make changes in their lives. If they realize that they must change how they function, then the trip has been a success and the work towards making the world a better place has begun.</div>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-30192511106386019432011-11-05T21:39:00.001-05:002011-11-05T21:40:34.778-05:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyf1FIh1kvjGKHu29PPDCqYDbEbEqrhRbUaT-pkjrEqMvdUzJ2tqiKX-Y0tvAHSur0LYrg152r0NbnhC3750DYFO3y7TCYT9aCbBaMrBcmrMXl9Z7rK9NiJE1n0R5bDwjGFlZUGg/s1600/tattoo2.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 170px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyf1FIh1kvjGKHu29PPDCqYDbEbEqrhRbUaT-pkjrEqMvdUzJ2tqiKX-Y0tvAHSur0LYrg152r0NbnhC3750DYFO3y7TCYT9aCbBaMrBcmrMXl9Z7rK9NiJE1n0R5bDwjGFlZUGg/s200/tattoo2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5671706866683703394" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">I now have a reminder of my goal to create communities of shalom that I will see daily.</div>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-42301675558379351132011-11-05T21:31:00.002-05:002011-11-05T21:38:23.321-05:00Searching for SomethingI am searching. I long to meet with God and yet I don't succeed. One would think that as a seminarian, I would have this figured out. But unfortunately, this is a misconception. <div><br /></div><div>I attend church almost every Sunday, but I only feel stress and am unable to worship. I believe this comes from working in the churches I attend. Though I am not technically working, I see the people who I work with while I worship and I cannot focus on God. Instead of focusing on God, I am focused on what I should be doing for work, past experiences, or anything but the present task at hand.</div><div><br /></div><div>I need to find a neutral space. A place where I can be nurtured and grow rather than be stressed. I think back to the evening vespers at<a href="http://www.holdenvillage.org"> Holden Village</a> and I long for that community. Each evening, after dinner, the community would gather together in worship. It took a variety of forms. Sometimes it was upbeat. Other times it was solomn. But we gathered in community to pray, sing, laugh, and commune before our maker. I long to find this again.</div>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-2805522559525547102011-10-31T13:00:00.002-05:002011-10-31T13:09:13.056-05:00Building Communities of ShalomI have been preparing for next summer at Red Line Ministries, the ministry I am currently directing, and this has led me to dive headfirst into the Biblical concept of shalom. <div><br /></div><div>In English speaking contexts, we typically translate shalom to mean "peace". Yet this translation does not capture the depth of this concept. In the Bible the word shalom has many different meanings and very rarely does this word speak of peace in the way we know it. Shalom is not just a lack of war and violence. Instead shalom is a concept rich in abundance and justice. </div><div><br /></div><div>According to Perry B. Yoder in his book <i>Shalom: The Bible's Word for Salvation, Justice, and Peace, </i>"Shalom defines how this should be." Shalom exists when all is in the full and abundant state that God created it to be. It is when every last child has enough to eat, we do not judge a person's value on how much they own or the color of their skin, and we live in harmony with the earth.</div><div><br /></div><div>This thinking about shalom has me pondering, what am I doing to build shalom on Earth. I feel that our calling as Christians is to build communities of shalom. This is how we share God with those around us. I live a very content life right now. I have a job and go to school part time. I am learning constantly and yet still have time to relax. But what am I doing to make the world a better place? How can I ensure that each day I contribute to the world each day? </div><div><br /></div><div>This is my new goal for myself. To give of what I have and share it with others. It is so easy to be a consumer in our world, but I am called to create. And so I commit that each day I will commit to create something. To do something that builds shalom around me and contribute to building a world that is the way it was intended. </div>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-39909202018134839532011-04-07T13:39:00.003-05:002011-04-07T16:04:35.139-05:00Corruption, Bureaucracy, and all those other lovely thingsIt's funny to think about where I am now in my view of the world and where I used to be.<br /><br />I remember traveling in India and learning about the corruption and bureaucracy that exist there and thinking, I'm so glad we don't deal with that in the US. I had a rosy vision of the US government and thought that things worked the way we learned about in school. Politicians listened to the citizens who elected them and enacted the bills their constituents wanted enacted. If a politician didn't follow what the people wanted they would lose their seat and all would be fixed.<br /><br />This rosy vision no longer exists. I see the corruption that exists in our government. The more money you have, the quicker politicians are willing to listen to your ideas. Politicians no longer listen to and think about the people who elected them, but instead listen to who has the most money, the lobbyists who have been paid to talk to them, and their political parties.<br /><br />I find it all really frustrating. Government is supposed to be the people organized to meet their needs. But more and more the US government is becoming corporations and the rich organized to meet THEIR needs. We need to take back our government so that it serves the people.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-45320294371633799292011-01-02T10:35:00.003-06:002011-01-02T10:45:08.980-06:00New Years ResolutionsPerhaps one of my New Year's resolutions should be to blog more....but it's not. But maybe I will attempt to more effort into it as this new year begins.<br /><br />This morning I had a really great devotional time that got me fired up. As a part of that, I ended up coming up with some New Year's resolutions;<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Love God more and more everyday.</span><br />My faith is defined by the Great Commandment to love God and love your neighbor. I feel like I often do a pretty good job at loving my neighbor, but less good of job in loving God. Loving God is the first commandment and the greatest and so I need to put more effort into this. I need to focus on spending time with God and thinking about what God's plan for my life is.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Talk about the hard stuff.</span><br />I hate conflict and so if conflict arises or something makes me uncomfortable I am very likely to shut down and not say anything. If I want to be a voice for justice, I need to get over this and not be afraid to speak truth to power. But I am also thinking about this goal in the personal sense. I need to be honest with those around me and say what I'm thinking and if a difficult topic comes up, we need to talk about it, not run away.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Stop gossiping. Be more positive.<br /></span>I am a venter. If someone makes me angry I need to talk about how I feel with someone else, complain a bit, and then I am usually over it. I've realized that sometimes I take my venting too far and complain to too many people. I need to work on this and allow myself to vent if needed (I can't bottle up my feelings) and then need to be done and move on. I also need to identify one or two close people to vent to and that's it.<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br />Stop wishing and start doing.<br /></span></span>I feel like I'm pretty good at this in the macro sense of my life, but less good in the details. For example, I always think about how I want to sit around and sing and wish someone would lead it. I spend a lot of time thinking about this and being sad that it doesn't happen. I need to get off my butt and do it myself. I want to start instituting some little things in my life that I keep wishing for.<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></span>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-33279652141753740132010-10-27T16:06:00.003-05:002010-10-27T16:15:31.446-05:00Finding my focusTwo years ago, when I decided to get a Masters in Social Justice, I looked forward to using the degree program to help me clarify my focus. Social Justice is a broad term that covers everything from immigrant rights, to race relations, to food and beyond. I struggled with trying to identify where my passions fit. Where was I called to work? To say that I was interested in "social justice" is just too broad and I knew I had to pick an area more specific.<br /><br />I have struggled with picking a focus area and graduated the program without the clarification of a focus that I sought. Fortunately, through my work at Garrett Evangelical Theological Seminary this semester and thanks to a Christian Educators Fellowship conference that I attended this weekend, I think my focus area is finally becoming more clear.<br /><br />I feel like I am called to work to build relationships. We live in a society that emphasizes individualism. Today, more than ever, we live in a world of broken relationships. Our relationships between each other are broken, weak, or even non-existent. The same holds true for our relationship with God. These two types of relationships are dependent on each other. If we do not have relationships with each other, it is difficult to have a strong relationship with God. And I believe that if we do not have a strong relationship with God (under whatever name one may call God) it is difficult to have strong relationships with each other.<br /><br />And so more and more, I am feeling a call to facilitate the mending of the broken relationships that exist around me. My definition of social justice falls into this understanding of relationships. I define social justice as "living in right relationship." I feel called to examine relationships around me and to work to make them right. I feel called to help build community and to create a world of love where relationships are valued.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-25362490863550380032010-07-04T14:18:00.003-05:002010-07-04T14:25:14.786-05:00New Home Sweet HomeI have moved! Earlier this spring I was given the opportunity to move into a house that is owned by the church. I will be doing a rent/work exchange as a part of that will be managing a new intentional community.<br /><br />A sad part of this is that my time at the Ella Baker Community has come to an end and I think it may also mark the end of the community. Everyone has decided to move on. We have replaced the people in the house and I believe they are interested in intentional community, so I hope some of the values will continue. We will have to see.<br /><br />I have moved into a gorgeous old house that is over 100 years old. I am excited because I have gotten to do a ton of work on it and because I work at the church, I have more control over the house. This means that I can install things like a hanging pot rack and magnetic knife holder in the kitchen and a compost bin in the back. It also means that chickens are more of a possibility.<br /><br />We have had the house back for about a month, though I just moved in yesterday, and it has been a flurry of activity. We have painted the entire house, redone the floors on the second and third floors, redone some of the kitchen (though not by choice and it'll need more work soon), and installed 4 raised beds in the front yard.<br /><br />I am already seeing the wonderful possibilities this house can offer. We have met a ton of people all-ready through the front yard gardens. One of my housemates is really excited about community outreach and so we've been brainstorming all kinds of ideas. I see a bright future for this yet unnamed community and I can't wait to see what unfolds.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-18812407802877838052010-06-11T10:10:00.004-05:002010-06-11T10:18:27.410-05:00Changes....Things are constantly changing in my life. Some days I feel like I lead a pretty boring lifestyle, but if I sit and think about all that is going on in my life, I realize my life is anything but boring.<br /><br />This summer, through the help of fundraising and lots of work, I am employed full-time at the United Church of Rogers Park as the volunteer coordinator. I am assisting the minister of education and outreach with coordinating the children's summer camp that will run for 5 weeks in July and August, helping run a mission trip program for highschool students, and helping start an intentional community. Beginning July 1, I will be moving into this community.<br /><br />I'm a bit sad about leaving the Ella Baker House, but I won't have to pay rent in the new place because it will be part of my pay for work so it was a hard offer to turn down. After deciding to leave the Ella Baker House, everyone else decided to move out as well. I was a little frustrated because I was hoping the community would continue on without me, and maybe it will because the people moving in after us were attracted by an ad talking about community, but we'll see. Life doesn't always work out as nicely as you plan.<br /><br />In the fall, I will begin at Garrett Evangelical Theological Seminary in the MA program for Christian Education. I'm hoping that after getting some basic theology credits done, I will be able to switch into the PhD program. I'm really wanting to study Education for Social Change and I think look specifically at how the church can be a vehicle for this type of education.<br /><br />There are so many things going on that life feels just a little crazy right now. But that's how I function the best, so I think I'll just hold on to the wild ride.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-33705229484600287372010-04-19T13:01:00.002-05:002010-04-19T13:12:50.020-05:00One day I will be a ReverendThis past weekend I attended the Deacon Dialogue at <a href="http://www.garrett.edu">Garrett Evangelical Theological Seminary</a> and the calling I have been feeling in my life was very strongly confirmed.<br /><br />For years I have felt called into ministry. I originally entered undergrad at <a href="http://cord.edu">Concordia</a> with the intention of earning a degree in religion and becoming a youth pastor. My time had not yet arrived, and early on in college I found myself at ends with all religion. I would flounder back and forth, some weeks I would hate everything having to do with the Church and be pretty sure I didn't even believe God. Other weeks I would be researching seminary and what it took to be ordained in the Evangelical Lutheran Church.<br /><br />At the end of undergrad, I found myself with a strong passion for social justice and searching to reconcile with the Church. I entered grad school in Chicago and quickly became involved with the <a href="http://ucrogerspark.org">United Church of Rogers Park</a>. This past year I have been working there and found myself feeling more and more called into ministry. I began exploring the position of deacon in the United Methodist Church.<br /><br />Deacons are ordained persons who are called to connect the Church with the world and the world with the Church. This is what I believe I am called to do. I think that there is such a disconnect with these two things. The Church ignores the world and the world ignores the Church. The Church wants to insulate itself from the messiness of the world. But this is not what Jesus did. He didn't lock himself away in the temple and teach only to those like him. He spent his time in the streets and got involved in the messiness of life. While doing this he taught about the radical love of God to all who would listen. This is what I am called to do.<br /><br />So, I have begun the ordination process as a deacon. Next fall, I will begin seminary with the hopes of at least completing the requirements for ordination, but hopefully also earning my PhD. This is a crazy path that I didn't forsee myself traveling down, but it feels right. So now we will see where it takes me.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-36852326988413620062010-03-12T12:59:00.002-06:002010-03-12T13:09:41.578-06:00My brain is currently friedI'm tired. My brain is tired. There are just too many things running through my mind on a daily basis.<br /><br />I'm currently applying to Garrett-Evangelical Theological Seminary for a Masters in Christian Education. I'm torn about this. Part of me is ready to be done with school. I'm a bit burned out. But then the other part of me loves learning and is excited about what possibilities more study holds. I am going to seminary to begin the process of ordination as a deacon in the United Methodist Church. I feel called to this, but some days it frightens me to all ends.<br /><br />Thinking about Garrett leads me to think about future plans. As of right now I plan on beginning a full time job at the United Church of Rogers Park in June. I am constantly stressing out about fundraising the salary for this position. I have sent out fundraising letters and have written grants, but I worry that this will not be enough. Combining this with the fact that I'm planning on starting seminary in the fall makes me question if I should do this job full-time or instead do it part time.<br /><br />These two ideas bouncing around in my head have caused me to be constantly thinking about my vocation. Is this indeed where God has called me? What if I'm wrong? Do I really want to work in the Church for the rest of my life? What does that look like?<br /><br />As I'm thinking about the future and the economic situation combined with my ethics of economics course this semester, I have been thinking a lot about the radical life that I feel Jesus calls us to. He says we should drop everything and follow him. This involves not planning for the future. Not worrying about our next paycheck. Just working for justice. Living in poverty. Could I do these things? My current plan may seem radical to some, but it's still an incredibly safe route. I will be employed full-time and have a salary. I will still follow a path that the world deems as "safe." Am I called to a life that's "safe"? Or am I called to challenge the world and live a life that's on the edge?<br /><br />These are only a few of the things that are bouncing around in my head. There are still so many more. Issues of charity vs. justice. Afterschool programming. Bullying. Working with kids. Working with volunteers. The list goes on and it makes me tired.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-18313675051096955802010-03-01T11:19:00.002-06:002010-03-01T11:30:40.345-06:00I've been thinking a lot about mission work and service lately. Perhaps this is because my final paper is about mission trips and the concepts of charity versus social justice in the context of these trips. Along with these concepts I have been reflecting on the location of these trips and where I feel called to do my work in general.<br /><br />I graduated college with a degree in global studies and French and had originally believed that I would work in a global context, perhaps for a large organization like the United Nations or some other large non-profit. I had even considered working for the church.<br /><br />As I traveled, I realized that I wasn't sure these large organizations were able to work at the grassroots levels where change was really needed. So, I then decided that I wanted to work for a small non-profit, but still at the global level. After more traveling and thinking, I realized that it's not fair for me to go abroad when there is so much to do here in the United States. Why should I take jobs that could be done by local people?<br /><br />But I think I am starting to see why people seem so excited to go abroad and work rather than stay in their own cultural context. Work in the US is hard. There are many times that I wish I could go abroad and teach some people English or how to grow food. They would probably look up to me because of my American accent and white skin. But that's not right. Just because I'm foreign doesn't mean I know more than them. More likely, they know so much more than me. But work in the US is hard. Issues are super complex. How do you show that people are living in poverty when their children have Nike shoes and ipods? There are complex issues that have people spending money on luxuries instead of necessities, but when you try to appeal to people to help, they just point to the ipod and say that obviously people don't need their help.<br /><br />Navigating the world in one of the most economically and culturally diverse zipcodes in the United States is really causing me to question many things and has shown me how hard it is to paint the world in black and white. But, there are many who see the world in black and white and so I question, how do I get people to open their eyes and understand the issues around us and support people like me who are who are working for social change?Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-40099153454824338622010-01-07T21:07:00.002-06:002010-01-07T21:22:51.353-06:00I'm back....I have been neglecting this blog of late. I think I have been in sort of a funk and my new year's resolution is to get out of it.<br /><br />People always tell me that I am idealistic, question how I can believe so much in the good of others, and wonder how I can be so optimistic about social change. Well, at the end of 2009, I hit a wall.<br /><br />Upon moving to Chicago I found myself in a world unlike anything I had ever experienced. I finally had the opportunity to go to protests, I found people who thought like me, I got involved with an alternative-gift economy (something I had been wanting to start for a while), I discovered intentional communities and was eventually able to move into one, I was growing food for the first time, and the list goes on. I was finally able to live what I had been dreaming up. I felt like I really could change the world and each day I saw that happening.<br /><br />But by the end of last year, the world didn't quite seem as rose colored. I began to feel overwhelmed by all the problems of the world; hunger, war, capitalism, globalization, etc. And I wasn't finding hope in those near me that before had seemed to hold all the problems. I was working with kids whose parents were struggling to put food on the table and a roof over their heads while I was getting together with people just like myself (white, university-educated, between the ages of 20-30) and trading stuff we made,"changing the world," and "bringing revolution." We weren't doing anything to help people who weren't like us, unless it was in a paternalistic manner of let's give those poor people some money. What about the fact that D has schizophrenia and will never be able to hold down a job? Is it fair that B has to grow up in a<br />culture that is not her own without a mother? Is it fair that a drunk driver his J and hurt him and killed his mom?<br /><br />So, I am now at a crossroads and trying to pick up the pieces. I'm trying to come to terms that my actions probably won't change the world. But I also need to know that my actions can change the world for one person and perhaps that is all that matters.<br /><br />So, my goal for this upcoming year is to pull myself out of this funk and find hope in the world. To find hope in a little girl telling me she loves me, a smile from the homeless man in the lobby, and in the friends that accept me for who I am.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-39333597414502898992009-10-26T15:14:00.002-05:002009-10-26T15:19:42.997-05:00Push Me....I've been thinking a lot about art lately and writing a bit. Here's a poem that came to me today in the library after coffee with a friend. I've been struggling a lot lately with the state of the world. I want to change the world. I see myself as an agent of social change. There is so much wrong with it. But sometimes I feel so overwhelmed. It's hard to find hope. There is so much bad in the world that sometimes it's hard to think that the change and revolution so many long for will ever come. This poem stems from some of my feelings. I haven't written a lot of poetry and think this poem needs some more work. But here's a first taste of something I've written.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Push me<br />Make me see something new<br />Something different<br /><br />Push me<br />Make me uncomfortable<br />So uncomfortable I squirm<br /><br />Push me<br />Out of my comfort<br />Out of my indifference<br />Out of my complacency<br /><br />Push me<br />To learn something new<br />To evolve<br />To change the world<br /></span><span style="font-style: italic;"></span>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-33450889396062182822009-10-12T12:53:00.006-05:002009-10-12T13:49:44.702-05:00Welcome to the Ella Baker House...<div style="text-align: left;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDeZN041UfB0IL96_YsE3ipUW9OccYqvMHQ1pinWSri7wna64LXWgpqufFfQoD_yHieWpkujcCSjtnSumXf8IDshqSn7iqC2FgKKicIdN6VhurgD_JMmubT_EhpQ6oxxekdp8NgQ/s1600-h/DSC04468.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDeZN041UfB0IL96_YsE3ipUW9OccYqvMHQ1pinWSri7wna64LXWgpqufFfQoD_yHieWpkujcCSjtnSumXf8IDshqSn7iqC2FgKKicIdN6VhurgD_JMmubT_EhpQ6oxxekdp8NgQ/s320/DSC04468.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5391774739371178850" border="0" /></a><br /></div>I had a desire for so long to live in community and the day finally came. Four of us, Andrew, Aidan, Lisa, and me set out on a journey to try this grand experiment called an "intentional community."<br /><br />So far we have been spending our time getting to know each other. We didn't know each other before moving in, but found we shared similar values and a desire for community.<br /><br />Our first big project was to choose a house name. This was not an easy decision, but we finally decided on the Ella Baker House. Ella Baker was a civil rights activist that worked with many of the big activists of her time such as Martin Luther King Jr., Rosa Parks, and W.E.B. DuBois. Despite her well-known cohorts, her name is not often heard. This is because she was many behind the scenes doing organizing. We really admired the fact that she didn't seem to care about being well known, but instead focused on the cause. It inspires us to keep on working for whatever issues we feel on our hearts and to work for change in our community.<br /><br />We've also worked on other various projects such as making a compost bin, figuring out how to split groceries, cooking with the massive amounts of produce I get from my job at the farmers market, and hosting a housewarming party.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: left;"><center> </center> We have many more goals to set and accomplish and I am excited to see where we go as we try to change the world.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3HBwBia9kL9msss5T5bH6Wc16iq2GVZU2Az3YBQwrKSQXcaa5PuBZsEOqtX2DlnHBfcnYhdaX3cD7OqE0_tw8aAkfAyyWaC-IFni6Y9j6Lpp9fABj9qVdE0svTU-eLNb64Zc0mA/s1600-h/DSC04492.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3HBwBia9kL9msss5T5bH6Wc16iq2GVZU2Az3YBQwrKSQXcaa5PuBZsEOqtX2DlnHBfcnYhdaX3cD7OqE0_tw8aAkfAyyWaC-IFni6Y9j6Lpp9fABj9qVdE0svTU-eLNb64Zc0mA/s320/DSC04492.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5391787036552829202" border="0" /></a><center> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs_W_gEZV-o4zEfuoGsOnQP0hAZd5qKv7CNwWMOL7tf1w6w5XvOgX0rayQtTD30ROYgTiEUbrVEE_SUR-8GM2e7-8u3xBWvrQIoHdHhJJWKESa3x4_tmWTDlVb9wVYy0vQL2ECQg/s1600-h/DSC04492.JPG"><br /></a></center> <center> </center> <center> </center> </div><center> </center><br /></div><br /><center> </center><br /></div>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-63538471146208692822009-09-30T09:33:00.002-05:002009-09-30T09:57:46.509-05:00Non-profit or not?For quite some time, whenever people have asked me what I wanted to do with my life, I have said work for a non-profit. Part of this goal included the desire to start my own non-profit. I was full of ideas about what this non-profit could be doing to change the world.<br /><br />But my view of non-profits is becoming jaded. I am currently working on forming a non-profit for my internship and am realizing how much paperwork and legal jargon is involved. You need to have boards, forms, and all kinds of stuff. I also just finished reading the book <span style="font-style: italic;">The Revolution Will Not Be Funded. </span>This book takes a look at what they call the "non-profit industrial complex" and how radical change has been stifled because of non-profits.<br /><br />I do believe that we are at a time that needs radical change. The rich are growing richer while the poor are growing poorer. The environment is groaning under our material-driven, polluted, consumer world. And we have stopped forming relationships with other people and instead form relationships with our tvs, ipods, and computers. Something needs to be done.<br /><br />Many people believe that non-profits are what can bring about change. But our current non-profit system leaves us with organizations that are bogged down with paperwork, understaffed, always thinking about where to find more funding, focused on charity more than justice, and limited by what they can do so they don't lose their funding.<br /><br />If I'm going to work for radical change, I'm going to have to give up working within the system. Think outside the box. It is outside the confines of what people have already tried is where change is going to happen.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-39474207483096973132009-08-31T15:25:00.003-05:002009-09-08T08:22:42.111-05:00Aligning my life with my values...I am working at aligning my life more and more with my values.<br /><br />My current goal is to figure out how to live more simply. Aidan, one of my roommates, and I have been having some conversations about this and I hope they can continue. I really want to live as simple life as possible. The other day I went through my closets and got rid of a ton of clothes that I didn't wear anymore. I had been holding on to some "just in case" or some I had been wearing, but only so I could justify keeping them, even though I didn't really like them. It felt good to get rid of it all and my drawers finally shut in my dresser. I hope I can continue this. If I do buy clothes, my new rule is that I need to get rid of some. I have also been trying to eat more simply. This means that I have been trying really hard to eat out less. I haven't been great at this, but I think I am improving. I am also trying to eat more simple food. This means rather than buying fancy fake meats or more processed food, I am striving to eat more beans and vegetables. At the moment, I have been looking at <a href="http://www.simpleliving.net/">The Simple Living Network</a> and I am finding it quite interesting.<br /><br />Another place I am trying to align my life with my values involves my computer usage, specifically Facebook. I am addicted to Facebook and spend countless hours on it each day and even more just on my computer. I rail about how I hate television for so many reasons and I feel like the computer has many of the same things that I hate about television. I am not very good at this goal, but am attempting to make baby steps.<br /><br />Another exciting change is that I have decided to switch my banking to<a href="http://www.shorebankcorp.com/"> Shorebank.</a> So many large, corporate banks don't invest their (read "my") money in the local community, but instead use it to fund environment destroying projects or wars or many other terrible things. Shorebank, who's motto is "Let's change the world", focuses on local investment and the environment. In T<a style="font-style: italic;" href="http://www.betterworldhandbook.com/2nd/">he Better World Handbook</a>, Shorebank gets a rating of A+ in social responsibility. My current bank gets an F. I think it's time for a change. As a part of this, I also want to strive to keep better track of my financial records and keep a budget. We'll see how that goes.<br /><br />All of this is part of my strive to <a href="http://www.cord.edu/Academics/Dean/Committees/Corecommittee1/assets/CoreCurriculum.pdf">"become responsible engaged in the world"</a>. It is true. I have become a 'happy Cobber' and Concordia haunts me still. I know a lot of people made fun of BREWing when I was there, but I really do love it. I want to think about how I can B.R.E.W. and make the world a better place.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-60770128434260029592009-08-24T15:12:00.007-05:002009-09-08T08:23:04.870-05:00A Tour of my GardenThis past year I have begun learning how to grow my own food. I started in containers in my apartment because we had no outdoor space. In August I moved to a new place and was able to move my plants outside. Here is what I have so far and hopefully next year I'll be able to expand into something awesome.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicqcEMcLmxZJ8MEfaB4t3NMWUkcA3lFtJLhF3EcTNoPGREeA_nhw0jTSEQRZFicATBN_6uAL-zmiJva7ungLOsxGZo-K43ntd75sIpPEFkaVrcHlvlXFmPVv5TeCuEYVUn4Asyuw/s1600-h/IMG_0655.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicqcEMcLmxZJ8MEfaB4t3NMWUkcA3lFtJLhF3EcTNoPGREeA_nhw0jTSEQRZFicATBN_6uAL-zmiJva7ungLOsxGZo-K43ntd75sIpPEFkaVrcHlvlXFmPVv5TeCuEYVUn4Asyuw/s320/IMG_0655.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373628328426917842" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1FYdb8bQf1frrFmT_HL8srg46C5o85k4IZL21inWGqUURqujFVCWTg_KRfq-yFxhAGdXahVNKykmeVPiMxuZ9rs4P_KUuzMpGeM4ZvwnjdhEdgRPXALxDG9iKpZvCJfC3VW0AEw/s1600-h/IMG_0654.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 185px; height: 247px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1FYdb8bQf1frrFmT_HL8srg46C5o85k4IZL21inWGqUURqujFVCWTg_KRfq-yFxhAGdXahVNKykmeVPiMxuZ9rs4P_KUuzMpGeM4ZvwnjdhEdgRPXALxDG9iKpZvCJfC3VW0AEw/s320/IMG_0654.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373628318095519730" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Planter boxes growing herbs. The outside 2 are basil and the middle is cilantro. The right picture is basil too. After this year I now understand how to prune basil so as to encourage it to bush out. It's starting to bush though it's kind of funky because it took some experimenting. The cilantro doesn't look the healthiest. I think it's ready to be done. I have harvested it multiple times and it looked good, but now it's getting light colored and kind of purple. I'm not really sure what that means. Maybe I need to do some research.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhL5WIH97yDadIfzOmD7Kp9AaTQz0t5pc6OYUyFlOj8MT-dDZkHfnGhyJthKOfrrVSbuMm-2wYFKFFwQ_nMnqul6zpMPpwO8DLs1xs2KTtMM0nZZQ5uAu2Dbgn_3J6ujdJK92LKUw/s1600-h/IMG_0653.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhL5WIH97yDadIfzOmD7Kp9AaTQz0t5pc6OYUyFlOj8MT-dDZkHfnGhyJthKOfrrVSbuMm-2wYFKFFwQ_nMnqul6zpMPpwO8DLs1xs2KTtMM0nZZQ5uAu2Dbgn_3J6ujdJK92LKUw/s320/IMG_0653.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373628312184674242" border="0" /></a><br />I just planted some beans. Apparently there is "one seed Chicago" and this year's seed is the bean. I got a free packet at an event I went to and decided I would plant them. I previously had carrots in this container and decided that hopefully the beans would help regenerate the soil because carrots take out a lot of nutrients.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPbc1aDz25sDF1p9OUUT8lWoam4jbFNqRdZ1Zzb6OyMG5Nde9ECobdkMQCfIlja3OHcwsaV-Ee95pPybmlua8YSybmAKDNxpoe0n9fR05MtY4Ru9Q7HSsoesNDNM1noX-4D8FC-Q/s1600-h/IMG_0650.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPbc1aDz25sDF1p9OUUT8lWoam4jbFNqRdZ1Zzb6OyMG5Nde9ECobdkMQCfIlja3OHcwsaV-Ee95pPybmlua8YSybmAKDNxpoe0n9fR05MtY4Ru9Q7HSsoesNDNM1noX-4D8FC-Q/s320/IMG_0650.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373628292782570114" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7tY_TfB_bcJizR7uctsU-fLCTPaaFKEh8GD6Xew5ypxnigsw23F5L_nQTDTtEXCqDM7fTIjFUQNvUABaFl_-wCoj2SPufFbv11z6mXa77lzzo1H7xoW4b7nLq2d8Rf8B7jdqkCg/s1600-h/IMG_0652.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 384px; height: 288px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7tY_TfB_bcJizR7uctsU-fLCTPaaFKEh8GD6Xew5ypxnigsw23F5L_nQTDTtEXCqDM7fTIjFUQNvUABaFl_-wCoj2SPufFbv11z6mXa77lzzo1H7xoW4b7nLq2d8Rf8B7jdqkCg/s320/IMG_0652.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373628301062618002" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />These are my tomato plants. I got them from Slow Food Chicago when they were small. I kept them indoors and they didn't seem to want to flower. They grew really big and bushy but wouldn't flower. Since moving I brought them outside and they are finally flowering! Soon I will have cherry tomatoes.<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6A8TLxxOaZV1_NiL_CxRKtPDd0h1PYcPZ4A52XJjcUKqu4r5jcqrgvvHBZ1Ewb-rqGTCqe5xO8hYWV-o09JmQYZYq8vApn6Fws9W_JQMqqZl_eHqskisHGRSApMEOZCW0jRVCHg/s1600-h/IMG_0659.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6A8TLxxOaZV1_NiL_CxRKtPDd0h1PYcPZ4A52XJjcUKqu4r5jcqrgvvHBZ1Ewb-rqGTCqe5xO8hYWV-o09JmQYZYq8vApn6Fws9W_JQMqqZl_eHqskisHGRSApMEOZCW0jRVCHg/s320/IMG_0659.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373630225375199954" border="0" /></a>I did a bit of guerilla gardening in our front yard. This area was full of weeds so I cleared a small area and planted mustard that the kids at church had left behind (we did a planting activity one day). I had to replant it so we'll see if it takes. If so, we'll have tons of tasty greens.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnIJmxj8hfwbdlR3op5TiAtLLZN8PQLpPkUDKt09THbDaNWU6tYvoQnVK0zJd2QGca7CojNbvMnrPOnPZ8w4pNFUW6W_PR60o489YLNkKg-lRHtoW4eETnSjZei3JdIr52Rk-oWQ/s1600-h/IMG_0649.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnIJmxj8hfwbdlR3op5TiAtLLZN8PQLpPkUDKt09THbDaNWU6tYvoQnVK0zJd2QGca7CojNbvMnrPOnPZ8w4pNFUW6W_PR60o489YLNkKg-lRHtoW4eETnSjZei3JdIr52Rk-oWQ/s320/IMG_0649.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373626356088862306" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0yzUpU_tlNYHWykdPc42ZJYorlotE8E9jyFAkFz2auyG8m48E6p9KlW4gqfEJMgaKAQxfOHs8t_rcBNUArjE95Q-TDWKyfCUUgbXapd41SB9Dazp_Vedw90Zd5y0jrqb08hKciA/s1600-h/IMG_0657.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0yzUpU_tlNYHWykdPc42ZJYorlotE8E9jyFAkFz2auyG8m48E6p9KlW4gqfEJMgaKAQxfOHs8t_rcBNUArjE95Q-TDWKyfCUUgbXapd41SB9Dazp_Vedw90Zd5y0jrqb08hKciA/s320/IMG_0657.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373630207517647506" border="0" /></a>These are not from my garden, but still a fun garden related project. I got a ton of pickling cucumbers from the farmers market on Friday. I cut them up and made pickles! This is my first attempt at anything like it, but I think they tasted ok. I'm not sure if I could keep these jars out of the fridge or not, so I think I'll refrigerate them just to be safe. Hopefully next year, I can do this with stuff from my garden.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7IgPXiuqvfm8WsQ6nmud6I9-yuG2YgYmG4e6rwj-TxHL64MQyOqndXCzO30AvVwNQT7f4b8kR7X438rI8rU5pzo0nZCZ0OcjVtXk8Uhsdfo7dZYCcPiep5vcQ-ZfFEL8A23KUqw/s1600-h/IMG_0658.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7IgPXiuqvfm8WsQ6nmud6I9-yuG2YgYmG4e6rwj-TxHL64MQyOqndXCzO30AvVwNQT7f4b8kR7X438rI8rU5pzo0nZCZ0OcjVtXk8Uhsdfo7dZYCcPiep5vcQ-ZfFEL8A23KUqw/s320/IMG_0658.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5373630215523107138" border="0" /></a>Finally, a picture of future plans. This is where we're hoping to plant a garden next year. The soil is in rough shape so we'll have to do a raised bed. It's also pretty shady so for sure I want to cut down those trees. I'm considering trying to put the bed in this year and attempting to build a cold frame for it. Greens into the winter would be a fun experiment. We'll see.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-84334736427862238092009-08-24T14:07:00.003-05:002009-09-08T08:23:21.021-05:00Sing a SongMusic. It's something that is a part of daily life. So many people walk around with white buds in their ears supplied by a constant drone of music from their ipod. With the advent of inventions like the ipod, music has become an individual activity, but it was not originally so. Music has had many uses throughout the centuries. It has been used to bring people together, to calm, to excite, to worship, and to protest.<br /><br />It is this idea of protesting with music and using music to bring about social change that I am very interested in. Throughout the civil rights movement, music played a huge role. Many of the songs of the movement were written and taught at the Highlander Folk school. Today I was reading a book that was talking about the civil rights movement and it said that meetings would often be preceded by more than 2 hours of singing. It was singing that brought people into the movement and helped teach them what the movement was about.<br /><br />I really want to reclaim music in this manner. On Saturday night I hosted a sing along at our house. I feel like many of the songs from earlier decades are being lost and we need to recoup them. It was wonderful to sit around and sing and I even learned a new song from my friend Cat that was quite powerful. I hope to continue these get-togethers to that we can continue to learn and sing and grow the movement.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-67808262210139153532009-08-22T17:40:00.003-05:002009-08-23T19:15:33.358-05:00I am taking my pursuits to living a radical way of life to new heights. I suppose none of it's too radical, but I feel like some of my moves are definitely outside the mainstream of what is typical for people my age.<br /><br />Aidan moved in yesterday and our community is now up to 3. Andrew, our 4th, will be coming in a little over a week. I am excited to be living with roommates who are hopefully interested in seeing what we can do to make change in our world. Hopefully they will join me in my pursuits.<br /><br />Gardening is off to a good start. A couple of days ago I planted all the mustard that the kids at church had left behind (we did a planting activity and only half of the kids took their plants home). I also planted some beans. My tomato plants, which I was really worried about, are finally growing some buds. Hopefully soon I will have cherry tomatoes! I also think when I go home in 2 weeks, I'm going to bring back some wood and build a raised bed in the backyard. I'm not sure if I'll get much, but I was thinking of building some cold frames and seeing what we could grow into November.<br /><br />I have also been working on the composting project. I wanted to make a compost bin out of flats, but discovered that they don't fit in my car. So, I am on to option number 2. I think I might just get some wire mesh when I go home and make one that way. Maybe the future will include something fancier, but at the moment, I just really want to get started.<br /><br />My project for Monday includes some pickling. I haven't decided if I am going to can these pickles or just keep them in the fridge. Jenny, the farmer who comes to the market I work at, gave me a ton of pickling cucumbers and a ton of peppers. So, I figured now is as good as time as any to learn to pickle.<br /><br />I am feeling really good about these steps I am taking to living the alternative. I think there are so many problems in today's world and we need to do something to change things for the better. These are the small steps I am taking in my everyday life that I hope to share with others and slowly bring about the revolution that I know is coming.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-50624878882594308762009-08-08T13:22:00.002-05:002009-08-08T13:52:47.752-05:00It has been over a month since my last post and a crazy month it has been. I mentioned some of this is my last post, but so much more has happened.<br /><br />About 6 weeks ago, Wes, the deacon at my church called and asked if I wanted to come and work in the garden on Saturday. I had nothing going on and so decided to join him and some others. While we were working, a small boy wandered up. He had the look of a kid who wanted to do something so I invited him to join me. Through conversation I found out he was 5. His mother was a couple blocks away and not watching him at all. He had a key so that he could go home when he wanted. Through conversation with Wes afterwards I learned that this was common in our neighborhood. I had heard and read about the term "latch key kids" but here it was a reality. Parents were often busy and couldn't afford afterschool and summer programs to keep the kids entertained. So instead the kids were just left to hang out at home or run around the neighborhood and take care of themselves. Wes began telling me about the afterschool program and the summer camp the church was running and I immediately felt called. I needed to do this. I didn't think I could afford it and I had just started another job, but I didn't care. I needed to be doing this. Circumstances ended up that I was able to back out of my job and I decided to live on loans for the summer and I was able to begin working with the summer camp.<br /><br />We have gone 5 weeks and have 1 left and I have loved it. At times it has been incredibly stressful. Wes and I are the only ones who have been there everyday and then the rest of the time the camp has been staffed by volunteers. Some come on a semi-regular basis, but others only come for the day and then are gone. This presents many, many challenges. We have 60 kids that have tons of energy and most were born in places outside the United States; Mexico, Nigeria, Tanzania, Jamaica, etc.<br /><br />Though there have been many challenges I have loved what I have been doing and realized that this is what I am called to. We have been working and figured out a way to set up a Federal Work Study position to pay me to work in the afterschool program. I felt really committed and realized there was a lot more work than could be covered by this work study position, so I decided I wanted to switch my internship site to the church.<br /><br />Things have just continued to snowball. Now, if all works out as planned, I will get to work with the kids camp, the afterschool program, and mission groups that will come and work at our church. And the most exciting part is that all of this will hopefully be leading into a full time job.<br /><br />I have never felt so called to something in my entire life. I have had an on-again off-again relationship with the church and I think part of that may be that I was running from the fact that I was called to work in something faith-based. This position, if it becomes a reality, covers so many positions that I have dream of as my "dream jobs" and there is a huge need. Everything seems to be falling into place which makes me believe that there is a higher power than just us involved in this whole process.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-69885527921597237602009-07-05T22:19:00.002-05:002009-07-05T22:24:09.879-05:00It's been an interesting week. I've met some new friends and have been hanging out with a lot of new people. I feel like this is the key to getting out of a funk I have been in. I have desperately needed to expand my social circle and I hope that these relationships can continue to grow.<br /><br />My whole work situation has also changed and this is scary but also exciting. I kept saying that I wished I had a way to back out of my serving job so I could go work at church. On Friday, I sat down with my manager and he said that he didn't think serving was working out for me. Here is my opportunity. The scary part is that I was depending on the income that this job was going to provide. Now I'm free to work at church, but I have no income at all. I've been feeling very called lately to the church and I think it's God that has been doing the calling. I have been running from this for a long time, but I think it's time for me to slow down a bit and start listening.<br /><br />Finally, I thought I had my roommates for next year all figured out and I was really excited. But tonight that fell apart and I'm not really sure where I'm at with that. What I do know is that I really appreciate on of my future roommates. She has pledged to stick with me and continue to work on this project. This makes me feel so much less alone in this endeavor and I am so excited to live with her, even if ends up being just us two.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-60981179009780304812009-06-28T14:45:00.004-05:002009-09-08T08:23:45.792-05:00Reconciling in Christ Sunday<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUTkfh4c0pYAXKzJ06HA4Je66T-PWkEC2cvBVKNNfngAmZQ18vkIdt1fTdCu_42hgxsX6Qy-MmGp9riQ1vWMSbHGTMDQ8YnJZ2T7s-QICiNi2QA6qHreZmr2KgWoDg83Kmhg16qw/s1600-h/IMG_0510.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUTkfh4c0pYAXKzJ06HA4Je66T-PWkEC2cvBVKNNfngAmZQ18vkIdt1fTdCu_42hgxsX6Qy-MmGp9riQ1vWMSbHGTMDQ8YnJZ2T7s-QICiNi2QA6qHreZmr2KgWoDg83Kmhg16qw/s320/IMG_0510.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5352473515305478018" border="0" /></a>Today marks the 40th anniversary of the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stonewall_riots">Stonewall riots</a>. These riots started the gay rights movement that continues even today as our GLBTQ friends fight to be accepted as they are.<br /><br />Today my church, the <a href="http://www.ucrogerspark.org/">United Church of Rogers Park </a>celebrated 'Reconciling Sunday.' This event involved celebrating how our church is open and affirming of people who identify as GLBTQ and they announced that they will be replacing the big pink triangle that has hung on the outside of the church and is definitely beginning to show its age with a new installation. They will be having a design contest to get the GLBTQ community involved and the winner's design will be made into a new symbol to announce our church's open and affirmingness.<br /><br />This triangle is something that made me come to this church originally. Though I do not identify as GLBTQ, I know that I could never attend a church where my friends were not also welcome as they are. I get frustrated with churches that are teaching messages of hate for the GLBTQ community when the church is supposed to be all about love. The Bible says "God is love" (1 John 4:8b) and if we are not loving our brothers and sisters, we are not loving God. I want to worship in a place that is filled with God and filled with love and so I must attend a place where all are accepted no matter what.<br /><br /><br /><span style="display: block;" id="formatbar_Buttons"><span class="on" style="display: block;" id="formatbar_CreateLink" title="Link" onmouseover="ButtonHoverOn(this);" onmouseout="ButtonHoverOff(this);" onmouseup="" onmousedown="CheckFormatting(event);FormatbarButton('richeditorframe', this, 8);ButtonMouseDown(this);"></span></span>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-32158443149391422792009-06-10T18:21:00.002-05:002009-06-10T18:33:35.108-05:00Today at church we had a peace rally against violence in Chicago. 36 school aged kids died this year because of violence in this city. 36! One is too many. To encourage the kids to have a safe summer, we handed out hotdogs on the front lawn, had games, had some community organizations with tables, and then held a rally and peace march around the neighborhood.<br /><br />It was wonderful and it got me thinking. I love the feeling I get at events like this. We come together as a community and pray. There is laughter and there were tears. Events like this leave me feeling so good and I question why I don't feel this way more often. There are three big areas I see that are present at these events that I feel are not present in my everyday life.<br /><br />First, there is community. This is a huge one. People come together and care about each other. We joke and laugh. I made friends with a little girl who's name was Fatima today. I'm pretty sure didn't speak much English, but she'd smile at me and come and talk to me all day. I had a man joke with me while waiting for his hotdog. He didn't speak a word of English and I very little Spanish...but we laughed and joked anyways. I love standing on the corner handing out food to anyone who walks by. Why don't we do this more often?<br /><br />The second thing stems from the first. This community is diverse. I get so frustrated in my daily life. I hang out with a bunch of rich, white people. Today we had the whole spectrum of colors with people speaking multiple languages. There were rich and there were poor. But no one knew who was who. We were just one community.<br /><br />Finally, there is spirituality. Faith does not have a huge place in my life and I miss that. It's something I'm trying to understand but feel really lost about. I used to be really into church and my faith, but I don't like that person I was then. I judged people and didn't care about justice. Those are huge things and I have ended up associating my faith with those things. I know that that's not right, but I do. I need to work on reclaiming my faith. I love how we come together to pray and sing and it's just normal feeling.<br /><br />My goal is to work to incorporate these things in my life more. I know it won't be easy and it will be uncomfortable at times, but I think if I can bring these things into (or back into) my life, I will be a much happier person.Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429514.post-61075126386857128702009-06-04T08:49:00.002-05:002009-06-04T08:58:05.553-05:00I am obsessed with worms.<br /><br />Last fall, one of my friends mentioned that he had worms under his sink. My response was "What? Ewww....gross." Then someone else mentioned it and some of my other friends started talking about it. This began my obsession. I set up my first worm bin and have been composting ever since.<br /><br />One of my goals in life is to spread this cool way to compost your garbage. So far I have set up two other people with worms from my bin, plus made a mini-teaching bin to be used at Uncommon Ground with school groups.<br /><br />I hope this is something that can catch on more and more. Apparently there is a Dunkin' Donuts in Florida who has 800 pounds of worms in a bin in their parking lot. So now I think I need to move on from spreading to individuals to spreading this to businesses too. No more organic waste in our landfills!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.ecorazzi.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/giant-worm-bin.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 543px; height: 365px;" src="http://www.ecorazzi.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/giant-worm-bin.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Breannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01311900942450820937noreply@blogger.com1